At the end of January, I started writing a book. I signed up for Donna Kozik’s Write a Book in a Weekend. I didn’t finish my book that weekend, but within the next two weeks I probably finished about 2/3 of the book. Then I got stuck …
Over the weeks, I decided that I probably just needed to start over. And believe me, I wasn’t looking forward to that prospect!
But I just went back and reread what I’ve already written, and it’s not bad! I feel like I can probably even finish it. I’ve even made a commitment to my business coach that I’d lay out a plan and have it done in May.
Now, I’ve never written a book before, so this is an entirely new experience. New experiences definitely get my caveman brain going! It’s been judging my writing as being bad, and it’s been making the job seem insurmountable (especially if I had to start over).
Yet even though I know my caveman brain inside and out, and I know it often doesn’t reflect the truth of a situation, I’ve been listening to it! I even know that perfectionism and struggle are some of the top symptoms for the way my caveman brain works, and I’ve fallen for it again!
I’m not going to beat myself up over it, though. I know that I’ll always have my caveman brain and that in this instance, it’s just trying to protect me from feelings of rejection, ridicule and failure. And that’s okay …
But I’m not going to stop. I’m not going to let my caveman brain tell me what to do. I’m going to get back on the horse and get back to my book.
And I’m not going to worry about how long it is or which format and size it should be, because that’s where my caveman brain also wants to go. It wants to distract me with the details. But I know that I just need to take it step-by-step, putting one word in front of another until its done. Then, and ONLY then, do I need to move to those logistics.
So here I go! I’m off to write a fabulous book about the caveman brain!